Ultimately, it is not you who are in control of your healing journey. Rather, you are the one who is on a healing journey. The path is already laid out masterfully for you by a Higher Intelligence that knows exactly what you need in order for your journey to unfold in the most masterful way.
What would it feel like to surrender, just for a moment, to the realization that you are walking a path which has been laid out for you by a Higher Intelligence that sees All and knows All?
Maybe you don't have to figure everything out all at once. Maybe some things are meant for you to "wait and see" how they will unfold in Divine Perfection.